A year ago today one of my dearest friends died. She died way too young. But she was sick and although she fought it, I can’t help but feel that she knew that her end was near. Sometimes when we spoke, she’d say “Lisi, I don’t want to die. There’s so much I want to do. Places I want to see.” And there was such longing in her voice.

Abby loved big earrings, skin care products and make-up. Not necessarily in that order. She was an amazing cook. She never learnt to drive. And she was funny. I mean really funny — but without meaning to be. A deadpan sort of humour that never failed to make me convulse with laughter.

I realized only after she died that of everyone else in the world, I share the most joyful memories with her. We’d while away the day doing the silliest things. Writing terrible rhyming poetry to each other. Writing romance fiction – and reading what we wrote each day to the other over the phone. She was the main character in her novel and one of her real-life crushes was her love interest.

She let me be myself and I could be as stupid and ridiculous as I wanted. She didn’t judge or care. She just loved me for me.

It’s been a year.

I think about her and remember our times together. I miss her so very much.

I put together a playlist for her of a few songs we both love/loved. Songs that we listened to in the 2000s on repeat. Each song delivers a great memory of her, of times we spent just hanging out being our best and silliest selves. Here’s a screenshot of the playlist.

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